FUcking hell, what the fuck happened to me? i used to be the girl with everything, brains, friends, work, extracurruicular, a boyfriend and looks... now i sit around in a fucking tiny shit hole of a fucking room and do absolutely nothing. and he doesn't even care
damn, i've never been able to make my self be this volnerable to anyone
and he doesn't care
he doesn't understand why i cry
he takes me completely wrongly
and i have no fucking friends anymore
everyone is gone
my family's not here
no one's here
fucking her
she fucking sits in a fucking room all day like that's what she fucking wants to do with her life
i need to do something
to be acive again
i'm not even doin well in fuckin school anymore
what the fuck has happened to me?? why am i turning into this?
is it all him?
but it hurts so much if i imagine my life without him now
i'm having such a fucking hard time trying to be happy anymore
i just wanna cry
and sleep all the fucking time
what's goin on?
am i depressed
but i'm the one that's always bubbly
with no fucking problems
but well
i guess i got some problems now
damnit
i knwo i'm not gonna go do somthin stupid
like try to kill myself
but i feel like i'm deing
i have no initiative to work
to watch tv
to eat
to do anything
i don't even know what i wanna do
all my friends are gone
they've all left me
he spends all his time wth some fucking girl
and has all ths fuckin fun,
what am i jealous?
i can't be jelous of him having a life and not me
i need to find somthing to do
and i need to find it fast
before i go crazy
my heart hurts....
that's how bad it's gotten
i wanna cry
that's all i wanna do
i can't do anything else...